Just back home after completing infusion number 11. Riding down in the elevator at SCCA, for the first time in a long time, I FELT like a cancer patient. So drained, and my hands tingling like they were shot full of the anesthesia they give you at the dentist…
And for the first time EVER, I had a moment when I wanted to call my doctor and tell her I don’t want to do the final infusion. My hands were so numb, it scared me. I kept thinking how I wanted to take a nap, but I was afraid to go to sleep, as I might be having an allergic reaction. Up to this point, I’ve been taking the paclitaxel like a champ. But the side effects are cumulative, so perhaps an allergic reaction could still happen, even though I’ve had no issues on that so far. Driving home with Ken I was having visions of ending up in the emergency room this time, and was considering calling the oncologist to tell her “I can’t do this again.”
Thankfully, the feeling has passed, and my hands and feet feel as they normally do during this process. Tingling and numb, but well controlled while I am taking the L-glutamine. And in no way frightening. Just annoying.
But I’ll let her know what happened, and how long the effects lasted, and let her do what she does best. Because she is awesome.